There are some things i have never experienced in my life yet that everyone I know has experienced them or at least some of them, so I thought it was time to confess to what I haven't experienced yet. most of my friends will know all of these confessions as I try to be as open as possible to people.
Confession 1: I've never experienced being asked out before.
The majority of my friends have boyfriends or girlfriends now or if they don't they have at least experienced a relationship or being asked out before, and I'm just sitting here thinking there is something wrong with me, am I fat, ugly, too boyish, too much of a friend, what is it that makes me so unappealing to the opposite sex? But then I also think maybe because I go around to everyone saying i'm happy being single, which i'm clearly not, or that I don't really want a boyfriend, when I sort of do, that that's why I don't get asked because I basically reject everyone before they have even uttered the question. I don't know why but anyway I don't mind being single sometimes in fact I actually enjoy it as I'm an independant person so being single allows me to focus and do the things I want to do in my life, on the other hand, I like the idea of doing these activities such as comic cons and concerts etc with someone else and sharing the experience. I mean I know a relationship will happen eventually but i'll confess i'm jealous of my friends and their relationships especially when it comes to group outings because it does make me feel kind of alone in the world.
Confession 2: I've never travelled outside of Europe.
Europe is a beautiful continent don't get me wrong but i've always had one dream and it has never been able to become true mainly because of money and the fact my mum hates flying so she would not get on a plane for the life of her. The main reason I have been able to go to the likes of Italy and Germany is because we have taking a coach journey there and taking the ferry, which I hate because i'm terrified of boats and I get sea sick. I've always wanted to go to America ever since I was a little girl. I've always wanted to see a Broadway show, walk the Hollywood walk of fame, experience the high life in Las Vegas and go to the biggest comic convention in the world in San Diego. I was offered the opportunity to go to America last year with my best friend but unfortunately because of financial situations I couldn't go and instead my family said i could pick a destination in Europe to go to and we went to Northern Ireland. This dream always seems to get further and further away from my grasp.
Confession 3: I don't have a provisional driving license as i've never learned to drive or massively had the ambition to.
I would like to drive eventually however where i work and where i meet up with friends for social events etc are all within walking distance from me so i've never bothered to take up driving lessons as i don't need them yet. However some of my friends have passed their tests and have got a car and i am jealous of them i can't deny it i am, however the way the work schedules work and other things mean that it is extremely difficult for me to start learning how to drive now as my schedule is constantly changing. So this ambition will have to wait a little longer than usual.
Well that's my big three confessions of life I haven't experienced yet, hope you enjoyed reading it.
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