Ello:)
Following on from my analysis of john Newman's Fire In Me - which was more successful than i thought it would be- i'm going to analyse yet another powerful, deep in meaning song of the past year or so. If you haven't guessed it already from the title - i'll be analysing Shawn Mendes' In My Blood.
Shawn Mendes described this song as "the closest song to my heart that I’ve ever written" - based on his own personal experiences with anxiety and the pressures of fame - Mendes provides the world with a powerful song that describes everyone once in a while - an anthem for those who struggle with anxiety or other mental health issues - safe to say this is Mendes' most successful song to date.
Once again like my previous music analysis - i will be analysing these lyrics based on thoughts and feelings of myself from both the past and present. I'm doing this series to showcase how meaningful some of modern day music can be and how relatable it is to everyone. Music is a powerful tool that can change your moods with a simple beat. it's something that some people do take for granted and listen to the beat rather than search into the lyrics.
1/2 Chorus: Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
During the worst times of my anxiety, i felt so hopeless that i wanted to give up but i knew i couldn't give up, what would it achieve for me? nothing. There's a lot of strength in weakness and vice versa, the amount of times i cried and wanted to end it all showed me i was stronger than i thought.
Verse 1: Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?
Although i never turned to antidepressants or medicine as such. I used to take an awful lot of rescue remedy, which actually never helped my anxiety. Luckily with my mental state i've never turned to alcohol or drugs but i know a lot of people who have its a coping mechanism for some people but its mainly a false one. A lot of people who turn to it think it will make them feel better and it does for a short while but in the long time it's just a distraction from their real feelings. in terms of the last two lines: "keep telling me that it gets better does it ever?", i've heard the phrase don't worry it will get better and yeah it does a little, it can become more managable but for some there is no light at the tunnel and although they may seem better on the outside the "walls are caving in" on them. It doesn't ever really get better but it does become more managable.
Although i never turned to antidepressants or medicine as such. I used to take an awful lot of rescue remedy, which actually never helped my anxiety. Luckily with my mental state i've never turned to alcohol or drugs but i know a lot of people who have its a coping mechanism for some people but its mainly a false one. A lot of people who turn to it think it will make them feel better and it does for a short while but in the long time it's just a distraction from their real feelings. in terms of the last two lines: "keep telling me that it gets better does it ever?", i've heard the phrase don't worry it will get better and yeah it does a little, it can become more managable but for some there is no light at the tunnel and although they may seem better on the outside the "walls are caving in" on them. It doesn't ever really get better but it does become more managable.
Chorus: Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
This cry for help is what everyone cries for. The amount of times when i was at my worst i cried for help, but it is difficult because especially for me they don't really understand. Its not "just a bad day" it's everyday, anxiety effects me everyday recently i've been really down- honestly have no idea why really i surround myself with good people but my thoughts just kept bringing me down. the thought of failure kept playing on my mind - and i'm still a little bit in that headspace right now. "Medicine" isn't strong enough to combat anxiety/depression its a short term basis. counseling can help with mental health but again that's mainly short term. Anxiety/ depression is incurable but it can be manageble. The only way we can do this is to not give up no matter whether the "walls are caving in" - you can't give up- the only person to help combat your thoughts and feelings is you.
This cry for help is what everyone cries for. The amount of times when i was at my worst i cried for help, but it is difficult because especially for me they don't really understand. Its not "just a bad day" it's everyday, anxiety effects me everyday recently i've been really down- honestly have no idea why really i surround myself with good people but my thoughts just kept bringing me down. the thought of failure kept playing on my mind - and i'm still a little bit in that headspace right now. "Medicine" isn't strong enough to combat anxiety/depression its a short term basis. counseling can help with mental health but again that's mainly short term. Anxiety/ depression is incurable but it can be manageble. The only way we can do this is to not give up no matter whether the "walls are caving in" - you can't give up- the only person to help combat your thoughts and feelings is you.
Verse 2: Looking through my phone again feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could...
Social media is a big trigger for lots of people including me for anxiety and depression because social media is very much used for broadcasting yourself and people become jealous of you doing stuff and how you look and that leads them to have a negative impression of themselves. Yes you could decide not to be on social media at all but it will still be there in magazines, books, posters - anything can help trigger your negative thoughts. I felt very alone when my bullying first happened as the school secluded me from my classrooms as the bullies were in them, they were also friends with my friendship group so i had no one to hangout with i felt as if i was in the wrong, i was the bully. if i do have a anxiety flare up as such i feel very alone in the world, i tend to cut off from the world and go into my own bubble.
"Trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe" is how i felt everyday in sixth form and how i feel a lot of the time. It's fair enough telling someone they need to chill/relax but it's more difficult than people think, there are thousands of thoughts and jobs to do in my head everyday i don't know what the word "relax" means truely. I've tried everything to try and relax and it's close to impossible, but i've found blogging helps relax me a little as i enjoy doing it, dance/sport helps as well as it gets a lot of stress and anxiety let out. But if things get on top of me or i have a bad day it can lead to me not being able to breathe, it leads to a panic attack. Panic attacks can be triggered by the smallest thing, if something has been moved on a to do list of mine because something else has priorities i can have a panic attack.
Social media is a big trigger for lots of people including me for anxiety and depression because social media is very much used for broadcasting yourself and people become jealous of you doing stuff and how you look and that leads them to have a negative impression of themselves. Yes you could decide not to be on social media at all but it will still be there in magazines, books, posters - anything can help trigger your negative thoughts. I felt very alone when my bullying first happened as the school secluded me from my classrooms as the bullies were in them, they were also friends with my friendship group so i had no one to hangout with i felt as if i was in the wrong, i was the bully. if i do have a anxiety flare up as such i feel very alone in the world, i tend to cut off from the world and go into my own bubble.
"Trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe" is how i felt everyday in sixth form and how i feel a lot of the time. It's fair enough telling someone they need to chill/relax but it's more difficult than people think, there are thousands of thoughts and jobs to do in my head everyday i don't know what the word "relax" means truely. I've tried everything to try and relax and it's close to impossible, but i've found blogging helps relax me a little as i enjoy doing it, dance/sport helps as well as it gets a lot of stress and anxiety let out. But if things get on top of me or i have a bad day it can lead to me not being able to breathe, it leads to a panic attack. Panic attacks can be triggered by the smallest thing, if something has been moved on a to do list of mine because something else has priorities i can have a panic attack.
Chorus
Bridge: I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now
This is a cry for help. A cry we've all cried out for at some stage in our lives. I remember my first cry for help, i had a panic attack and was sent home from school in year 12-i turned to my mum sobbing my eyes out shouting how much i needed some help, i couldn't take it and i knew in my head my thoughts were becoming darker and suicidal, i didn't want my head to control me like that so i screamed for help. We then together approached about couselling and other mechanisms to cope, which helped for a short time and then i found a way to cope on my own- blogging was a big factor of my coping mechanism, it helps me to talk about it.
This is a cry for help. A cry we've all cried out for at some stage in our lives. I remember my first cry for help, i had a panic attack and was sent home from school in year 12-i turned to my mum sobbing my eyes out shouting how much i needed some help, i couldn't take it and i knew in my head my thoughts were becoming darker and suicidal, i didn't want my head to control me like that so i screamed for help. We then together approached about couselling and other mechanisms to cope, which helped for a short time and then i found a way to cope on my own- blogging was a big factor of my coping mechanism, it helps me to talk about it.
1/2 Chorus
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
Again if you would like to read about my anxiety backstory you can read it here.
You can also see my analysing of John Newman's Fire in Me here.
That's it for today!
Again if you would like to read about my anxiety backstory you can read it here.
You can also see my analysing of John Newman's Fire in Me here.
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